Emotions

ByeBye

2009-04-17T05:55:00.003+08:00

Hiya all
this is the end~
time goes by
everything changed
I appreciate you guys for reading over my blog
trying to understand me
the reason I close this blog
because
everything's ending in my life
I Love You all
everyone of you
especially to those who care me
thanks
&
Bye

一封给wingee的信

2009-04-17T05:40:00.002+08:00

Wingee
一直以来都没能好好地和你坐下来
谈谈心事
记得你曾经说过要找个时间和我坐下来
聚一聚
你很忙吧~
所以都没机会
还记得之前的我并不想参加CLS
直到遇上你
是你说
"大包,康乐股适合你."
我就参与面试
成功了
在华文学会里
我知道我自己做得不好
时常闹脾气
搞事情
希望这一切都不会影响你
因为是你撑着我
当全桌的人反对我进康乐股
谢谢你那么看得起我
但是
也向你道歉
因为我并没做到最好
.
不知道你会否看到这封信
但是希望你原谅我

大包~上

美蕙

2009-04-17T04:48:00.002+08:00

谢谢你对我的关心
一直以来都知道
你很关心我
虽然
我们不在一起了
.
昨天丝佩问起我
为什么不追回你?
我并没有回答她
直到早上
跟她说你不接受我
她说我和你还有可能在一起
高兴你在今天陪伴我
今天也算是搞清楚了
你只是以朋友的身份来关心我
所以
谢谢你了

失败

2009-04-17T04:19:00.002+08:00

我真的很失败
对着一个自己喜欢的人
我竟然可以那么失败
真的不知该骂自己傻还是什么的
丝佩
我喜欢的女生
一个让我心疼的女生
但是
也因为我疼爱她
所以我更不能不放手
她不想谈恋爱
因为种种原因
加上自己还是放不下
那男孩
这几天
陪伴她
想着应该机会会提高
怎知却知道她不想谈恋爱这事
但是这几天也是我和她有过美好的回忆
我已经很开心了
虽然口头上说着没关系
我不强求她接受我
但心里一直都在痛

我吃醋

2009-04-14T03:45:00.006+08:00

虽然
对你而言
我并不算是什么
但是
我能感受到你的心里有个人
有可能就像之前的文章
你和他并没在一起
是某某原因
我真的不行了
看不下去
你对其他人的好
我会吃醋
>.<
有时侯根本就控制不到自己
还是会闹情绪
还是会胡思乱想
去了唱歌再到情人桥
还是很在意
因你的心里是他
超痛苦
.
到头来
你的心都不趁有空间来容纳我

Copied from NieNie blogs

2009-04-08T01:11:00.004+08:00

Get this post from NieNie

每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友..

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。

也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，

还不懂的珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，

你们的身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，

对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，

而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，

你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，

对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，

你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，

心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，

你会尽你所能的帮他，

不会计较又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，

你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，

但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，

心中都有过这么一个特别的朋友，

很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，

总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，

彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，

你还是知道，

他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，

当他那个特别的朋友，

有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友..会是谁呢？

很多的感情，

都因为一厢情愿，

最后连朋友都当不成了。

常常觉得惋惜，

可惜一些本来很好的友情，

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你。

如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，

这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，

表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，

要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，

你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。

希望你们能珍惜身边的人，

可能在这一刻你们不觉得他、她是你生命中最重要的人..

一旦他、她已离你身边而去是，才发觉..

一切都太迟了

hope you will saw this

Shame on me

2009-04-08T00:35:00.005+08:00

Doesn't know why
I keep trap myself in Love
Love
desire of it
seeking for it
fall for it
crash because of it too
the one I Love doesn't Love me
yet
the funniest part
the one I don't Love Love me
I still remember Jason ask me for my opinion
Choosing
the one who love you
or
the one you love
I told him
get the one that love you
because you'll get happier
after all
I'm the one who chose the one who I Love
[Jason,I'm Sorry]
.
I wish you wasn't treat me good
I wish you really keep a distance from me
because is damn hard for me to
PULL OFF
thinking of you
missing you
care of you
Love you
many times
I told myself
that's over
but you gave me hope after all
elder said
when your expectation is high
you get more hurt
Peoples are right
I'm stupid
willing to wait someone that never think of me
lying to myself
haha
I'm Dumb enough
but I told them
I never regret because being together with you all these day
even is short
but It's memories between you and me

Death

2009-04-06T01:56:00.002+08:00

Ever tried been to hell?
haha
I almost meet my papa there~
and that's the reason I didn't update my blog lately
but thanks to my sis
She brought me back
those day
My limitation appear in front of me
I did thinking of giving up
she gave some advise
she talk with me
Many things happened but I don't think gonna wrote here
.
Today
were going to MSCC
hm~event organized by CLS
well,actually i suppose not to be there
tsp ask me to go
so
I were there
haha
shock when I saw people i knew at stage
they did well on their performance
^.^
nice work guys

My thought

2009-03-19T23:39:00.003+08:00

I always looking foward
for the new day
wishing the next day is a better day
than before
Life
Love
Studies
people around me are stop study
working and earning $$
some of them
chasing their dream
some of them
live with their life
Me?
once and before
I'm one of them
chasing the life of dreams
Fact wake me up
from this violent society
focus on studies but always meets problem
maths,programing
damn you
can't you just be simple?
so I can get a flying color results
=.=
Love
I'm loser of it
but
I really want to know
who the FUCK is playing with me
sms me and ask me to be your bf
even I'm look like playful
but
I take serious in every relationship
just
sometimes
I'm not good enough
tsp
when i said I Love You
I really mean it
maybe is me afraid of getting hurts
that's why I just keep quiet
don't think myself can Bear it
Tomorrow is your PCA & Statistic
again
don't make yourself exhausted
all the best

Not Happy~

2009-03-19T19:44:00.003+08:00

Wohoo~
I lost 15 marks for my program design
FUN MAN
missed the time to passed up assignment
just a little bit more time
and
i could pass it up
=(
i had no words on it
usha was surprise when heard that i didn't passed up the assignment
...
i was upset for the whole day
can't even smile when saw tsp msg
even her picture

Emo

2009-03-10T00:05:00.004+08:00

You said I always Emo

But did You know why I Emo-ing?

Let me Tells you

I Emo because I CARE You

If I don't Care about You

I WON'T FUCKING GIVE A DAMN

did you ever realise

when you mansion about "HIM"

how is my feels?

my Heart turn cold

and started to Emo

I agree that I was too sensitive about

every single word or action

you made

You had asked

How's relationship goes if I always Emo

Lets make this clear

I don't Emo with my dear

I just flighty with my lover

you said you're not Happy

and you coverd it sucessfully

but you know what

I can feel that you ain't Happy

but

I was stun

I don't know what should I do to helps

I just Hope that

you can share with me whenever you sad

you can hits me or scold me

rather than keep it inside you heart

Yea Right

I know you won't give a damn

who am I to You?

I'm Just Nobody

I always ask Myself you ain't my dear

why I care so much?

but I can't depart my Feeling aside

Because of You

The One I care the most~

Drunk

2009-03-09T22:32:00.004+08:00

Wee~

all is drunk

Me,Melvin,DJ,LQ,Eddie & James

1st times ever

Last Saturday

None of us survive from Drunk

haha

James goes the worst

He totally fainted

vomit all the way back to EP

haha

Next is LQ

he is better than the previous time

he drink wisky without adding any water leh

hehe

Me,DJ & Eddie

are half-drunk

hehe

Melvin?

He drink alot too

just not bad as Us

maybe he dah biasa

haha

and the part that pissed me off is

he missing

none of us know where the hell he been

for like an hour +

were worries about him

Me,DJ,Eddie called him for 100 times +

he didn't fucking answer

=.="

we heading back to EP

mana tau Melvin called me to fetch him

Fetch him back to HweiSze there

and heading back EP

Dragging James back to EP

ei,keep fit lor

damn Heavy leh you

haha

I drink because of someone
I drunk because of someone too~
Suffering of it

Deserved of it

失落的感觉

2009-03-02T16:00:00.001+08:00

Today
I go to class alone
and 1 hour early =.=
alone waiting the time comes
meet LimLiYen
and talked about DJ
she told me that I'm alone now
...
12pm
class started
I still sitting there alone
till class end
Going back to EP?
don't have card
call peoples and finally Jack bring his card to me
Thank You
EP is silent
home alone
gaming alone is suck
.
Normally DJ will remind me when is the class
he always playing his hp beside me
borrow his EP-card to me
Making lots of noise in room
.
I feels empty
.
DJ
I respect the decision you made
and
work hard for it
When free come back to sampat with us lar
Miss You
not me
is all of Us
Peoples in room 0303
We are Brothers
=)
take care
If one day you dare to forget one of us
we'll kick your ass
XD

Tag from NIENIE

2009-03-02T01:43:00.003+08:00

Rules:It's harder than it looks!
Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real.
Nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.
You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1.What is your name : LIN PAU SOON
2. A four Letter Word : LOVE
3. A boy's Name : Louise
4. A girl's Name : Lynnette
5. An occupation : Lawyer
6. A color : Light Blue
7. Something you'll wear :
9. A food : Lemon
10. Something found in the bathroom :
11. A place : London
12. A reason for being late : Lazy
13. Something you'd shout : Lame
14. A movie title : Lord of the Ring
15. A drink : Latte
16. A musical group : LinkinPark
17. An animal : Leopard
18. A street name :
19. A type of car : Lancer
20. The title of a song : Love Song

I tag~~
~Lynnette
~Danny
~LQ
~QM
~Miyako

Bad Day

2009-03-01T00:50:00.003+08:00

Morning wake up~
heard a sound at beside me
my glasses were broken.
Preparing go to PSLC ~
with one mother f**ker
go there had some fun with others
just someone didn't be there with me
quite sad
when finish
were going back to ep
but whose know
someone missing from the room
DJ
where are you?
leaving us without a good reason
you know how is our feels?
none of us feel good
we missed the time being with you
come back leh
We're here for You
room 0303
hehe
then i pack my stuff go home
then funny things
Accident happen
FUN MAN!
walao ei, feel like damn bad luck de lor
my car side door totally gone
i really shocked
and stun for few sec...
i was like dun care
when try to online
and try
cannot pulak?
walao
fooling me meh?
i ask Jack what happen to my modem
he told me that lighthing bring the ended life to my modem
:'(
silents........
then looking people to fetch me back to EP
thanks to my friend [wees]
but not end yet
I bring my stuff to EP
who know the door is locked
and i thought hsemate going limteh
go find them but don't have =.=
go back and knocked the door
knock till wanna broke only LQ open door for me
Today really a shit day
.

Busy

2009-02-16T02:11:00.002+08:00

I prove 1 little things
in this busy Life
My Mind are great
haha
can remember all the things i have to do
meeting
venue
things to do
time table
studies
gaming
website
LOL
But
still hope that my result won't drop
.
there's somethings I really want to tell someone
from today
I'll forget all about you
yesterday
I drink for just a few drop of alcohol
but I feel sadness
due to the
every words you told me
.

Recently

2009-02-13T02:41:00.002+08:00

Long Time didn't post new blog~
busy about CLS thingy again
CLS Gathering and PSLC Camp
Tired
really afraid about my academic
Hope this sem will get better result than previous

This week is CNY event
they really work hard for it :)
I saw almost all were dying
but They still do the best for the event
Today are the last event day
Very large event
doing well [ei,i seldom praise people de leh]
Sorry for can't help much
all i can do is support and cheer for you guys
.
my Event is coming
worry
things happen~
.
Jes
Thanks for helping me till very late night
I keep it on mind
Anythings just share with me lar
I know somethings is hard to say it out
Trust me
Said it out
otherwise will leave a bad effect to your soul and mind
I'll turn sad if peoples around me effecting me
I'll try my best to bring you out of the sadness life
Live Happy

感情

2009-02-04T00:43:00.004+08:00

Today after class
watch two movie with DJ
Title:
我的最爱
十分爱
.
Same director,Same actor
but nice to watch
Actually when watching
I was like~omg
really feel like wanna cry out
but must tahan
because DJ is beside me
hehe
But you know why?
Because somehow I feel likes I face the same situation
but
I tell you hor
both movies ending is SAD
meet up with the wrong one
the movies teach me:
.
you're blinded by some factors
till you can't saw the truth
~what you saw isn't true~
.
如果一个人喜欢你，他会改的
有些话不问不知道不问会后悔的
.
感情是有时机的

ChineseNewYear

2009-01-31T20:00:00.002+08:00

This ChineseNewYear [CNY]
I celebrate with my friend Family
His name is KuanHua
One of my BestFriends in life
We went Genting
his family plan to asked angpau from Uncle Lim
LOL
but before CNY started
I and friends go to count down
and I saw 2 person
EngKiat
What you doing in Malacca?
o.O
no need to celebrate with Family o?
and the Girl
how you going to explained later?
hehe
I didn't sleep for that night
not because of them
but were gaming the whole night
kaka
Prepare stuff and heading to Genting around 9am+
When I step to the bus
there's lots of unknown faces
New to me
Start getting angpau from people
Genting, we are coming
not plan to enter playground
but entering Casino
kaka
helping his aunt won 1000++
I doesn't play
just hanging around
Our !st day Dinner
9Dishes
cost RM950.50
2nd day
RM1143.90
8Dishes
=.=|
Swt
yaya
about the gambling
others aunt and his mum and dad
giving a VERY BIG angpau to uncle.Lim
ard RM10k
as you know gambling 10 times
you lose 9
I having great time with them
even a bit paiseh
xD
but there's one bad news come from my mum
She told me my cousin steal my angpau
from my mum Room
1st Emotions is FUCK HIM
lucky that my mum get it back because there's some sign on the angpau
can't believe
We coming back from Genting
at 3rd CNY
I'm Bad Son
didn't go home
I'm Sorry Mum
Stay with his family
having fun all the time
Well,Is start to settle down
My Feelings
3rd sem is coming
going to work hard
and harder
Good Luck to Me and
Peoples in the world
Lastly
Happy Chinese New Year :)

愛しています

2009-01-21T18:17:00.002+08:00

Watashi Anatao Aishiteru
translated into
I Love You
Sachiko-san teach me this
Sachiko-san
Is a Lady who married to a Men in Malacca
which giving me opportunity to learn everything about Japanese
well
I'm glad that I meet her
in few years ago
.
Peoples besides me
seem like having trouble about 愛
Are you one of them?
Love
I writes many blog about it
Love gives people
Hope
Future

A sense of security
Happiness
Second Chance
Forgiveness
Honor
Forever
Power
instead of these
Love gives people
Sad
Disappointed
Greedy
Betrayal
Change
hatefulness
Tears
.
Weird huh?
there's different Feels that Love can gives
Had you asked yourself
What is Love?
Peoples told me
Love is undefined
Some told me that Love is a gift
What yours opinion?
.
one of my friend write in her blog
Love by someone
or
Love someone
Which you're seeking?
I think everyone looking for Both
but
is that possible?
yea, maybe one or two couple are
before this there's a guy asking for my opinion
I answered him by choosing the Love by someone
If you read my previous blog
you'll know someone wanna love me
But I refuse Her's Love
I hope I didn't guide him into wrong path
.
Experiences
make me growth
yet
make Me fear
towards Love
But what I hope is
People besides Me
Appreciate people whose love you
and you love.

Holidays~

2009-01-19T23:07:00.002+08:00

People
Sure you loves Holidays
Don't think either one of you hate it
If you're the one
then you might have the same feels with me
BORING
ARGH
Friends are working or study
I'm Fucking Alone
=.=
Well
1st few days
I feel really Happy because got time to rest
normally too busy
haha
after that
when I was msn peoples
all of them said the same word
"BORING"
hehe
so Cute~
when working or studying
All were waiting for Holidays
when Holidays came
they complains too boring
hm...
peoples are used to be like that
^^
I meet up with old dudes
plan to play badminton
and
play mahjong
hoho
My friend ask me to go Genting with him on 1st day of CNY
still considering
any suggestions?
anyways
Hope all reader of my blog
Happy Holidays

for M from J

2009-01-12T13:32:00.002+08:00

today you msg me
told me that there's a blog about M&J
I went and read all
just after few minutes
I never get to respond
you told that the blog is deleted
.
Christmas
I'm looking for you too
in portugis settlement
TB told me that you're here before
missed it =(
and the following hours
we chatted
and you keep ask me
who's the one
who making all that
I won't tell you
because I can't prove its done by " "
and u said going to delete me from msn list
well
since u plan to delete why don't block me?
I was angry
and respond that towards you
I knew its hurt
but you think that won't hurts me too?
I always wondering how to greets you
sms?msn?or what?
sorry, I not brave enough to do all that
I always write and delete
keep asking myself
why so stupid?
waiting someone who don't want you
so I looking for someone
to make me forget you
"I Always Here For You"
is the promises i made for you
i keep that in my heart
since you doesn't need it anymore
now
all I can do is to apologize
Sorry to not being brave
Sorry to not tells you
Sorry to hurting you
Sorry for Loving you
from deeps of my heart
just wanted to say that
I Love You

Sick

2009-01-05T16:07:00.001+08:00

This is the 3rd day

turning into 4th

in few more hours

Im Sick =(

Well, I willing to die rather than suffer like this

argh

Is pain

Not feeeeeeeeeeeeeling well

1st day

after taking my bf panadol

I was getting better

active fast =.=

wow

Its really work and fast

but

2nd day

I thought this will be ended

whose knew

after the protection of the panadol

its still the same

FUCK!

but more than half of the responsibility is on me

because I drink

and get scolded by bf

I'm So Sorry

I never knew its getting worst

friend told me will getting better if i drink

take another panadol

and feeling better

bf afraid me LOVEs panadol

haha

Won't

3rd day

hey

next day 5th Jan is my finals

why can't you just fucking leave me alone?

I'm sick of it

prepare for finals

I don't want sick became an excuse

for me to failed

Sleep ard 10+pm

woke up at 1+am

thanks to James and DJ

talking nonsense ==\

silents when peoples sleep

Go to Finals

and feeeeeeeels really bad

going to see doctor now

and Jack

Thanks for helping me :)

Confession

2008-12-28T02:30:00.004+08:00

Someone suddenlly said She likes Me

what the fuck?

No Way~

Come On

I'm suprise about your confession
but
I'm Sorry

I fall in Love with other girl

stop disturbing me

you're not my type

I know I'm not handsome and blah blah blah

Inferiority complex

this attitude make me losing her

Lynnette

I fall in Love with you

but

you seem like found someone beloved

no matter how

still wish to see you happy

Christmas

2008-12-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

I brought a Chocolate as a present to someone speacial to me

Happy when you said you like Chocolate

I going out with friends

Melvin,HweiSze,Eddie,DJ,LQ,TB,YuanHow

DJ parent XD

We went to Portugis Settlement

Crowded =.=

but I was there around 12am

due to guide DJ parent there

Fireworks

^.^

if you're there with me

It shall turn the Christmas into a wonderful night

the place is so nice

House decorate with lights

there's santa claus too~

But the worst is

Air polution

we took picture

and I meet lots of people =.="

but bad things is

I got sprayed by them

I say Hi with my hand

they replies with Spray

hehe

pay back time next year

muahaha

afterwards

We went to KL(kotalaksamana)

supper time

were home around 4am somethings

even All of us is tired

but We had a memorable White Christmas

Cyber Trip

2008-12-20T23:22:00.002+08:00

20Dec08
33 people in one bus
Going to Cyber Jaya
1st of all
We had our breakfast at Malacca stop Center
well,
you know what
there's bunch of people
=.=
never expected
hoho
we have to stand to eat
but someone on the bus
guess who she is?
is Yen
haha
Gary buy her some bread for her breakfast
ei
not bad huh?
xD
then we move on to the Cyber Jaya MMU
but the bus move damn slow
we reach their around 11+
what the~
then we guided to a Lecture room
and had some briefing
I found out
I can't get my degree if i still continue Diploma IT
so I were hang on the time
CLS organizer guide us for tour
Well, Is big =.=
and we move on to lunch
but we doesn't know where am us
Someone asked where I got brought by you guys to sell
haha
TB, don't Worry
We won't Sell you
we had our lunch in KFC, Kaya cafe or A&W
then We had our way to sungai buluh
and meet people from UM
we had a long long tour
we walked around 20000+ step
tiring but nice
and we serve the patient by serving the food
thanks to those who helped :)
and most happy is
All of us excluding me
are invited to stage for some performance
We sang "Friend" and a few chinese song
to entertain those patient
hope they like it
we are going off at 8+
people are tired and still we having fun in bus
Arrived Malacca around 11+
^.^
Thank You
for those who participate.

My Wishes

2008-12-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

Wish to see you
in the middle of the night
walking alone
back to ixora
so I can take the opportunity
company you walk along
giving you
my jacket
and
it'll be the best night
ever
^^

Tired

2008-12-12T19:11:00.002+08:00

I'm Tired
Doing all these
I can't make it
Plan to stop myself
and
take a rest
Assignment
Meetings
Events
Tutorial
Class
Games
Why only 24 hours per day?
these stuff already takes more than 20 hours per day
I need to rest!!
some more
there's someone out there
I should always care
Missing & Worries
Her
Just handed up my assignment today
Hope everything is ok
I need marks
otherwise
I going to study like a stupid at Final~

Jean Birthday

2008-12-05T03:21:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is Jean Birthday
like I said so
we do go to GoGo KTV
and
pure bar =.="
but you know what
we having great time in gogo ktv
hehe
sing from 8pm till 1am
almost die from singing
xD
Wait I upload the picture
^^

My "BoyFriend" Birthday [Jean]

2008-12-04T01:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Jean
hehe
18 now
mature girl xD
so
must know how to take care yourself
okies?
Don't always make your sis and your "Girlfriend" worried
^.^
by the way
Don't drink if you can't
Even is your Birthday
just had to watched out too
Tomorrow
We'll go to GoGo KTV
Sing the whole day
plan to go pure bar too xD
hehe
Anyone interested please inform me

The One [You know who you are]

2008-11-30T02:18:00.002+08:00

Time passed
Things changed
do You?do I?
Not plan to forget the feels towards you
Because
that's real
that's me
that's everything
You do know I'm Always here for you
like I always said to you

Logistic and Catering

2008-11-30T02:06:00.002+08:00

Justin : Leader of Logistic and Catering
Yuan How : Assistant
Group Member:
Cindy[my secretary XD]
Ming Yen[my prince of Logistic LOL]
Ai Yong[my princess of unknown =.=]
will discovered more
hehe
Hope everything is going smooth
We'll be along like bro and sis
^^
by the way
going to yamcha after the ocwc meeting
:)

Dream Story

2008-11-30T01:42:00.002+08:00

I'm sure everyone out there have a dream story
so do I
but
today writing this blog
with my tears and hard feelings
because
my dream story are going to end
either I
never think of it :)
Feels sorry to my mum
who always proud of me
sis
who always support me
advise me
dad
who leave me when I'm 4
hoping I can make him proud
and lastly to everyone
who helps me always
I think I'll stop study after this
there's still lots of thing
I wanted to do in campus
weeeeee
So
I going to live with It
since no other choices
Christmas is coming
hope there's a Santa Claus
give back my dream story
again

Cancer

2008-11-28T15:02:00.000+08:00

巨蟹座终极完美分析
巨蟹是心软的，容易被感动，即使表面看起来总是有一副硬硬的壳，但那壳子底下是一颗柔软敏感到极至的内心。它们面对一份感情是犹豫再三的，不要说它们懦弱，它们只是明白自己是容易受伤的。他们对感情抱有信仰，相信纯真、相信天长地久，所以有时是挑剔的。

这是一层表面坚硬的壳，其实攻克轻而易举，因为蟹蟹有一颗柔软的心。

蟹蟹恋爱了，这时的它们变的很粘人，很婆妈，因为你是它的中心，它会为你考虑很多，饭吃了吗？天气会变了吗？记得带伞哦！路上车多，慢点走哦！……..诸如此类！

蟹蟹是深情而痴情的，爱上一个人会爱的很深，即使明知道没有结果也很难自拔。这是巨蟹的一种固执，想要得到的东西，往往不会轻易放手。有时，一段没有结果的恋情会成为蟹蟹的生活重心。这无疑是痛苦的，但又难以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在内心大叫着放弃，所以这时的蟹蟹总是在坚持和放弃的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬着。学会放弃是蟹蟹的一门功课.

当然，如果蟹蟹真的决定放弃了，它的坚决会让所有人吃惊。
要记住：除了你自己，没有人可以伤害到你
蟹子是痴情的，但又不善于表达，面对自己心爱的人拘谨、放不开。它们的幽默感此刻变得生涩。
蟹子是深情的，但又不善于把握，为什么一次次控制不住自己的情绪，说出明知不该讲的话？

分裂而善于幻想的寄居蟹在说巨蟹之前，先说说几个一直以来欣赏的几个偶像，他们都不同，但他们有一个共同点，就是，他们都是巨蟹男。周星驰，王家卫，罗大佑，李宗盛，梁朝伟，张学友……一般在每次排行榜中总是靠末的巨蟹们，看起来并没有很明显的个性，但是，他们在艺术方面的直觉和敏锐却是别人难以匹敌，从这几个人名里就不难看出。他们在生活中都是温文尔雅的，被动的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他们的电影，歌曲中，却展露出令人惊异的才华，让我们总是不由自主的为之倾倒。当周星驰让我们笑得泪水横流的时候，我们也早听闻其实戏外的他认真严肃，不苟言笑，对待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我们知道在戏里演什么都神形毕似的影帝梁朝伟同性格南辕北辙的射手刘嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不愿结婚，他总是说��其实他的人生就是在戏里；我们知道张学友出道前曾经是黑社会的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自弃，也看到张学友成名后依然为了家庭拼命打拼，几近崩溃……

　　这就是巨蟹，其实，最能说明巨蟹特质的，就是－－分裂无论是哪一种蟹，他们都有着分裂的思想。他们渴望安定，也渴望出人头地，他们内心充满艺术的灵感，夸张的幻象，但是在现实生活中，他们总是低眉顺眼，很难真正展露心中的狂想。所以在艺术的舞台上，他们反而得以施展，让心中奇异的狂想放大到极致，他们可以将任何一首歌一个角色演绎的入木三分，所有来自于生活中被动的接受，在艺术的殿堂上得到了最好的宣泄，所以巨蟹真的应该属于舞台。即使没有好的歌喉没有好的外形，但是他们有良好的感受力和表现力，他们的性格实际上更像是一只寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他们常常将自己包裹的很紧，但在诠释和演绎别人的时候，他们那内心的感情得到了释放。

　　巨蟹座的另一个长处是他们有着哲学的思考力世界因两股力量相互消长，而水象就是典型的阴柔之力。水象星座的人有一种天生的宇宙观，巨蟹也是如此，加之他们天生有母爱的情结，所以他们的思考往往带有着人性化的关怀。所以从事与艺术相关的行业的巨蟹，无论如何都可以算是幸运的巨蟹，因为能够得以发挥天然的性格所长。但是不是每个巨蟹都有这样的机会，所以大多数巨蟹都会感到自己的压抑和痛苦。他们不是没有渴望，相反他们需求很多，渴望很多，但是他们总是躲在自己的壳里做着各式各样的幻梦，只是在想，很少实施。所以如果你看到的总是低眉顺眼的巨蟹实际上并不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一个假象。

　　永远无法抹去的自卑巨蟹们其实是自我感觉很好的心高气傲的一群人，但是却又难以克服时时刻刻想躲进壳里的自卑感。他们天生多疑和敏感，碰到困难，就先躲进壳里，自欺欺人，在梦中编织自我的安全感，而从来没有想到如何主动将危机转化为机遇。他们对待困难的消极方式，使他们总很难真正木秀于林，他们总在捕捉他们认为最好的时机，但是那个时机却总?无法到来，其实世间哪有万全之策？当蟹蟹们艰苦的自我互博之时，大好时机已经失去。但是要改变这种天生的自卑感确乎很难，蟹蟹们几乎完全不由自主。
怀旧是巨蟹们的人生主旋律巨蟹们非常怀旧。他们喜欢旧东西，怀恋旧感情，对家庭有着天然的眷恋。泛黄的相片，褪色的丝带，尘封的梳妆台……所有一切带有浪漫情调的旧物，都可以让他们独自神伤，黯然追想，他们总是沉浸在过去的回忆里，永远记得年少时的孤寂敏感，永远记得初恋情人，多年后仍然四处找寻初恋情人的消息，慰籍多年来始终保持新鲜的记忆。所以王家卫的电影总喜欢用这样的句式开头：多年以后……

　　忽冷忽热患得患失的爱情他们天生悲观，永远需要多一点，更多一点的安全感。为什么他们如此需要安全感，因为他们天生就没有安全感，所以他们是很容易恐慌的，所以他们也就变得非常的多疑和猜忌。爱上一个巨蟹是要仔细思量的，因为他们会突然忽冷忽热，突然置之不理，突然恶言相向，但是其实他们并非不爱你，他们有时候是在跟自己呕气。他们渴望天天24小时同你粘在一起，他们对爱人有着强烈的占有欲，恨不得掏心掏肺给你，他们关注你的点点滴滴，小到为你买一支发卡，大到帮你选择哪路公车……他们都费劲心思，他们时时刻刻每件事都为你考量，但又因为付出的不停增加而变得越来越担心害怕，会不会得不到对等的爱。所以他们会突然变得冷淡了，也许只因为你一个眼神，他们就觉得你已经不如从前，于是开��无休止的试探，他们说话总是转弯抹角，但是却总希望你永远清晰表态，假设某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹们立刻条件反射的开始惴想出无数个虚拟场景，在无尽的悲观中，意淫出种种悲惨场面，然后再见你时，就已经是冷口冷面，甚至说出无比绝情的话语－－所以，你和巨蟹的他们，是要努力去磨合的，给他们足够的信赖和安全，他们回馈你的，绝对让你感动的热泪盈眶。

　　虚伪包装下易感的心实际上巨蟹善于伪装。他们喜欢笑，无论何时何地，他们常常微笑，也许这笑容有时候让人欣慰，但有时候却会让人感到非常的虚伪。当然巨蟹们也总有自己的小奸小坏，但是他们虚伪的前提却总是先为了保护自己。他们对自己应得的利益是淄铢必较，有时候会让人感到他们是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚会等场合上，他们又绝对是豪爽大方，主动抢着付账的人。所以其实巨蟹是个公私概念很明确的人，他们对该得的绝对毫不客气，而对待朋友，他们又觉得其实这点钱根本不算什么。他们是眷恋朋友和家人的，他们基本都有些喜欢酒。而且酒量都还不错，因为他们眷恋那种宾客相尽欢的气氛，更眷恋着家的和乐融洽之感。所以巨蟹们喜欢做饭，即使不会做饭也对美食有天然偏爱，他们懂得享受居家生活，��以巨蟹们有个理想婚姻是最快乐的事情。问题是巨蟹们却常常选择晚婚或不结婚，因为他们多疑又害怕，他们总是对新幻境充满怀疑，对新的家庭又向往又拒绝，在自我矛盾中，不断蹉跎了年华。

　　自己为自己创造安定感觉巨蟹们总是不安，这是一种不好的感觉，因为如此，许多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，终日郁郁。其实，巨蟹们可以尝试自己为自己创造安定的感觉。找一个家里人都喜欢的对象，建立一个自己的家，也许巨蟹会发现自己会变得安稳很多。找个摩羯是比??理想的选择。或者找一个自己的爱好，倾注所有的心血，自己也会变得安定很多。当然蟹蟹们也许会说，你这是站着说话不腰疼啊，要是那么容易的话，还用得着你说吗？呵。但是，无论怎样，当我们自己意识到自己的不安，就该努力去克服他，其实壳外的世界，没有那么可怕，这是真的。

　　总的说来，巨蟹们很可爱，尤其是在艺术上有成就的那些人，他们创造的都是令人仰止的丰碑，所以巨蟹们不必没来由自卑，其实你们都很出色

Mdm.Sharmini & Lynnette

2008-11-24T17:16:00.004+08:00

Madam Sharmini
this is her
the girl you wanted to know
Lynnette
she's a wonderful girl :)
Law [LOL] student xD
well,
is surprise that you know my blog
hehe
Maybe that's why I feel Happy to chat with you
Lynnette
sorry to post your picture here

waiting+missing

2008-11-23T02:12:00.002+08:00

since when i started to miss you?
since when i started to wait for your replies?
missing and waiting you has became my habits?
sometimes peoples said waiting is wasting time
but
I really hope you understand
All is you in my heart
why make things complicated when there's just a simple thing?
envy when saw you having dinner with others
envy when saw you playing with others

[u see.... this is what happens when u let the feelings get to u...]

but
this is real
feelings won't harm me and you
just please give me a chance to prove it?

my fault or you're too much?

2008-11-18T01:32:00.004+08:00

ei
I think you know who I'm talking about
when I talk about this
listen
I had no offend to anyone
If you don't like
then is up to you
I know what you mean
not offend high committee
why should I?
weired
but I wanna ask you
did they ever go before?
yes or no
makes different
I agree
we should Cultivation the high com
but if they go before
then is wasted
understand?
they go for fun
is shit
they go for learning
good :)
everyone out there
is waiting this opportunity
to look over what media really is
I really had no comment
I doesn't angry
just
hope you understand
as I said again
upon this
Is Justin own personal thought
nothings with others

My Mind

2008-11-15T14:32:00.004+08:00

Do I look like concerned what people talking about?
I really had no comment
I always said I don't mind
but somehow
Maybe you're right
I care about it~
Do you think I can put it aways?
hard for me
from start till nows
I Keep remind myself
about
What had I done yesterday
So
I'll think why things happen
It's my faults?
argh
What should I do?
any comment?

2nd Sem is Start

2008-11-10T15:48:00.002+08:00

2nd Sem is started

I late for morning and afternoon classes

system analysis design

buiness technical communications

I selected as Class rep =.=

for buiness technical communications

thx for yours support xD

It seem to be a busy sem

so hope everythings is going to be fine

Lynnette

I think you should meet this lecturer

Mdm Sharmini Abdullah

she just like another you

LOL

the ways she spoke

just like im listening to you

hehe

Well,

I have to work hard for my supp

Maths

here i come

Recreational Division

2008-11-09T21:34:00.002+08:00

I'm One of the RD member

but

I wasn't Happy

Do You Know Why?

Everydays I busy for RD

People said
Why makes yourself so hard?

Such a Stupid

but I still be with you all

Because i always trust you guys as friends

Do you ever knew why Jack leave?

yea,

You know some reason but not all

Jack,Me

always seek for the warmth of Family
I Doesn't know about others

Why today Alex ask you

Wasn't we should do the booth together?

Because of 1 people

so we stop the traning

Jack Can't Stay because he just like me

Communication problem

I always ask myself

Should I leave too?

LOL

I tried my best to join

But whos know

Failed

as you said

Money is needed when we go to somewhere

I have to say sorry

Because this wasn't My ways

I agree SH have the skill to become leader

Improved myself is impossible

Xiang

do have great skill

and

you do realise the weakness of her

but everytime

you are the one who fall into the trap

Wong and KT

supported both of them

they like bro and sis

did you ever realise?

Me,Alex and Yen

are always stand a side

I know what is my problem

Because I'm Me

you guys really are family

but im just nothings

see

when i stop connect with you all

even a dinner or smth

I can't TALK at all after that

every of the words on this post only my personal comment

nothings with others

If I really hurt someone

I'm Sorry

I won't quit till the day You asked

Who Am I?

2008-11-09T01:35:00.002+08:00

Can all Of you help me ?

Need You Guys to help me identified myself~

What you think about me ?

Just Give A Comment :)

It's Helps

Don't Worry I won't Angry

Thank you

人生交叉點Crossroads of our lives

2008-11-07T20:49:00.003+08:00

我們應該每次都會面對到的問題
我們該怎么做選擇？
那個是對？
那個是錯？
怎么才叫最佳選擇？
但是不一樣的人有不一樣的答案
不是嗎？
使你定义錯或對的是誰？
是父母？
朋友？
情人？
但是真正的對與錯誰能告訴你？
不是自己嗎？
其實每個人的心裡都有個答案
只是
想得到其他人的認同
如果我選擇了放棄就讀
如果我選擇了其他的大學
如果我選擇了不是這些朋友
如果我選擇了不參加華文學會
如果我選擇了不參加康樂股
如果我選擇不與她交往
現在的我會是怎么樣？
是否會過得好些還是壞些？

Wedding

2008-11-02T23:17:00.002+08:00

Today go to friends Wedding
Wonderful Wedding :)
Enjoy looking at both of them.
But,
I get myself drunk :)
envy Looking at Them
Sweet couple
When will I get wedding?
o.O
HaHa, interesting question
I missed someone
Someone Who I Love
Deep in my Heart
Appreciate everything besides you
^.^

Life

2008-10-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

These days,
My Life Doesn't goes well
What can I do?
I ask myself
Should i
Pray?
Stop Study?
Start Working?
I Like Everyone Beside me
But
Not everyone like me
What i done?
until Offended you
Again and Again
You Bring Me To Hell
I don't know what Happen
My Friends, Family,
even My Dear
Leave ME
Do You Understand
How Disappointed Am I?
HaHa,
How Childish I Am?
Nobody going to pity me
If
there's second chance
I won't , I won't
Choose to Live

Loneliness

2008-10-23T20:10:00.002+08:00

Why I'll feel lonely?
:'(
Maybe you're not with me.
Well,
is You
Always in My Heart
Looking at Your picture,
Miss the time
I be with you.
Even is short
But I'm Happy!

Finals

2008-10-17T22:39:00.002+08:00

Wee~

Finals is over.

Going to Celebrate it xD

Holiday!

What should I do?

Where shall I go?

No idea,

hehe

Everyone seem Happy

Because can go home~

Well,

Not Me,

Because I'm Malaccan.

Not miss home that much like you guys do

Greatful that know each of you

That complete my life journey.

Lynnette,

I waiting your handmake cake^^

Wish to taste it quickly

HeHe.

Anyways,

Hope Everyone have a Great Holiday

And

Rest more

Because We are going to

Enter 2nd sem

Will do much better than now

^.^

Death

2008-10-17T01:52:00.002+08:00

Death

Slowly approach my lovely Granny

Now,

She lying on the bed unconscious

Everyone was crying

Hey,would you just fucking stop disturb my Family?

I do trust you had enough people

Leaving my Granny alone please!

Don't you have a Family?

What would you feel if your Granny dies?

Will you please leaving her alone

if I begged you?

My Granny

You're the Strong and Great!

Wasn't you wish to saw us get Married?

Get well and wait the time come,

Stay with Us.

I Love You,You Love Me,

We Are Happy Family!

Feels

2008-10-15T18:00:00.003+08:00

am I weired?

well,

I asking this because I easy to get touch

by any sad things :(

They told me

man bleed rather than cried.

But,

I can't control myself

understand?

Even I watched cartoon

I would cry

If there's somethings touch

my Heart

Did I look foolish?

Hm...

wondering

why I'll like this?

asking myself

No Idea

like i know =.="

is a wound from childhood?

Hope I can control it

Don't fall tears easily

^.^

Friends

2008-10-14T02:48:00.002+08:00

Do you had Friends?

What do you think Friends is?

Do Friends play an important role in your life?

Which kind of your Friends?

Fucker?Faker?Backstabber?

Listener?Teacher?Brothers?

Well,

Friends Are Important To Me!

to others,I had no idea

21 year old

I saw lots of people

in and out of my life

Do you ever think,

Your trusted Friends Betrayed You?

How could Friends you trusted Backstab you?

How can Friends so Fake?

How I trust Friends that seek for bargain on Me?

Hey, don't waste our time

Just Fuck Off from my life,dude~

But,

there's still some trusted Friends

in my Life.

Even each of them have their own weakness

but,

they living with the true them.

I'm fine with it

since

We Are Friends :)

I do think you know which Friends you are to me!

Thanks to coloured my Life!

RelaxTime

2008-10-11T12:20:00.002+08:00

Well,doesn't know why~

After maths examinations,

I didn't do any revision :S

Always gaming and blogging

Chatting with friends

Wasting time,

10,10,2008

Justin,Melvin,HweiSze,James,Eddy,LQ,Tommoy

We went to purebar

HeHe,

Actually we wanted to go there

at Happy Hours

Who knews,We late

Missed the time.

Were there around 10:10pm

We drink and dance

Meet Gavin and his GF

afterward

Meet Siraj,Ash,Wenny,Piggy,Guy

While dancing,

one girl approach me

then we dance together

Sorry,My Dear

yaya,forget to tell

The DJ suck =.="

the Song they plaed is fucking Lame

We were off around 2am+

Instead of going yc

We decided go home

Well,now its my time to work hard

for my Finals

Otherwise

I'll regreat

Human Being

2008-10-10T03:47:00.000+08:00

Well, everyone have their own character~

I have mine, like i always said

I'm Who I'm

Who really Care's what the fuck you think about me?

Why should i give a damn to what you said?

That's me.

Sometimes i really worried about my atitude,

Will this change my life?

Will this helped?

But

Times

Show everythings

I live with my own unique lifestyle

I happy with it

I'm not who you think

Who ever Judge me before ever know me

Please

Fuck Off !

Justin :dob:1st July

2008-10-10T03:21:00.000+08:00

7月1日解放

7月1日出生的人都相当敏感、能干、适应力强，并且喜怒形于色。虽然这一天出生的人也可能受到长期的情绪困扰，但是他们多半会赢得胜利，克服各种的控制、不义和压迫。这一天出生的女性大多会在工作与母亲角色（或者说工作与家庭间的要求）间感受到强烈的冲突，因此多半会正视当今社会上性别方面的议题。而这一天出生的男性则具有一种不寻常的敏锐度，他们不但对女性所处的情况感同身受，也感觉得到自己身上的女性特质。

不管是男性或是女性，这一天出生的人在生命中总是持续处于不受欢迎的沮丧中，他们多半是自己最差劲的敌人，常常担心在工作职场或是家中低人一等，甚至在他们最成功的时候也无法避免。从正面的角度来看，这一天出生的人很少会盲从，而且不论他们如何对一件事物奉献心力，或是忠于任何一种意识形态，总是会很弹性地去看清事情的另一个角度，以及寻找其他的做事方法，绝对不会食古不化、刚愎自用。7月1日出生的人总是深思熟虑，因此绝不会有简单的答案或肤浅的想法。

这天出生的人城府很深，具有复杂的人格，同时会严守自己真正的感觉。从另一个角度来看，他们乐意参与社会的活动，同时还会热情，无私地为社会贡献自己之力。这一天出生的人多半懂得施比受更有福，这是因为他们懂得接纳以及对别人感同身受，因此他们大多自认为能够了解别人而且愿意给予帮助。但是一旦他们自己遭受痛苦时，可就自顾不暇了。

这一天出生的人在情绪上具有自我折磨的倾向，但是如果他们不面对这种困扰自己的感觉，同时尝试去解决，就无法在个人的发展上有所突破。同时，这也可能使他们受困于情绪中，可能要等到某些状况发生了，或甚至是一个晴天霹雳，才有可能将他们导住另一个方向，因为直到这个时候，他们才会突然醒悟到自己行为的偏差，尝试去改进自己的情况。然后他们才会变成一个比较高度自我发展的人，重新以积极、正向人格特质向世界整装出击，同时将社会、家庭和爱情成功地结合在一起。这一天出生的人如果愿意走出自己的小天地，他们会开放得让人跌破眼镜，而且还会主动寻找生活中的乐趣，这就会成为他们一生中最值得庆幸的事了。

幸运数字和守护星 7月1日出生的人受到数字1与太阳的影响，这些具有数字1特质的人通常相当自我、非常有主见，而且渴望争得第一名的宝座。虽然这一天出生的人在自我表现上有一点被动，但是他们会受惠于太阳与月亮的双重影响。太阳象征强壮的创造能量和火焰，所以最好让它能持续稳定地燃烧，而不是零星放火，最后失去了控制。

健康 7月1日出生的人一般都不太喜欢自己的身体。虽然他们举止优雅，同时可能还会享受各类的活动，但他们会歇性地摇摆于主动地表现性欲与完全的禁欲之间。这一天出生的人所面临的最大伤害可能是忧郁症，在某些状况下他们最好能够去寻求心理咨商。他们需要一个朋友、一位宗教导师或是心理医生，让他们偶尔能大叶苦水。7月1日出生的人的饮食习惯通常不太寻常，有时候甚至很特别，会一下纵容自己的食欲，一下又禁止自己的饮食，结果导致非常不健康的饮食习惯，所以应该小心而且循序渐进地在早期就予以纠正。

建议快乐未必就是肤浅，深刻也不一定就需要痛苦；一旦你了解这些，就可以离开自己的象牙塔了。不要害怕一个人，支持你的朋友都会站在你这边。学习接受就像付出一般，绝对不要容许别人在你面前趾高气扬。

塔罗牌
大秘仪塔罗牌的第１张是“魔术师”，象征着智慧、沟通和资讯。魔术师头上有一个代表无限的符号，有时以宽帽表示，有时则是一道光环。这张牌有许多种解释，其一是：魔术师领悟生命循环不自己的本质，并且因为这层体悟而拥有力量。所以正立的牌面代表富有外交手腕、精明干练；倒立则表示毫无顾忌与投机心态。

静思语 : 比上不足，比下有馀。
优点 : 深刻、好施与、有决心。
缺点 : 困扰、沮丧、持续地陷入苦恼。

Emo~

2008-10-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

When i saw you sad,

I turn sad too ~

When i saw you were pleased

I'm laughing together ~

I feels that

It's my fault that i can't protect you

It's my fault that i can't cheer you up

It's my fault that i wasn't there when you are sad

It's my fault that i act like nothing

but in deep of my heart

I hope you're happy

I hope you're protected

I hope you're safe

I just wish you know that

I'm always here for you.