ByeBye

Hiya all
this is the end~
time goes by
everything changed
I appreciate you guys for reading over my blog
trying to understand me
the reason I close this blog
because
everything's ending in my life
I Love You all
everyone of you
especially to those who care me
thanks
&
Bye

一封给wingee的信

Wingee
一直以来都没能好好地和你坐下来
谈谈心事
记得你曾经说过要找个时间和我坐下来
聚一聚
你很忙吧~
所以都没机会
还记得之前的我并不想参加CLS
直到遇上你
是你说
"大包,康乐股适合你."
我就参与面试
成功了
在华文学会里
我知道我自己做得不好
时常闹脾气
搞事情
希望这一切都不会影响你
因为是你撑着我
当全桌的人反对我进康乐股
谢谢你那么看得起我
但是
也向你道歉
因为我并没做到最好
.
不知道你会否看到这封信
但是希望你原谅我

大包~上

美蕙

谢谢你对我的关心
一直以来都知道
你很关心我
虽然
我们不在一起了
.
昨天丝佩问起我
为什么不追回你?
我并没有回答她
直到早上
跟她说你不接受我
她说我和你还有可能在一起
高兴你在今天陪伴我
今天也算是搞清楚了
你只是以朋友的身份来关心我
所以
谢谢你了

失败

我真的很失败
对着一个自己喜欢的人
我竟然可以那么失败
真的不知该骂自己傻还是什么的
丝佩
我喜欢的女生
一个让我心疼的女生
但是
也因为我疼爱她
所以我更不能不放手
她不想谈恋爱
因为种种原因
加上自己还是放不下
那男孩
这几天
陪伴她
想着应该机会会提高
怎知却知道她不想谈恋爱这事
但是这几天也是我和她有过美好的回忆
我已经很开心了
虽然口头上说着没关系
我不强求她接受我
但心里一直都在痛

我吃醋

虽然
对你而言
我并不算是什么
但是
我能感受到你的心里有个人
有可能就像之前的文章
你和他并没在一起
是某某原因
我真的不行了
看不下去
你对其他人的好
我会吃醋
>.<
有时侯根本就控制不到自己
还是会闹情绪
还是会胡思乱想
去了唱歌再到情人桥
还是很在意
因你的心里是他
超痛苦
.
到头来
你的心都不趁有空间来容纳我

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每一个女孩的身边都有一个不是男朋友的男朋友..

但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。

也许为了顾及家人的意见，你们没有在一起。

也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。

也许你们相遇太早，

还不懂的珍惜对方。

也许你们相遇太晚，

你们的身边已经有了另一个人。

也许你回头太迟，

对方已不再等待。

也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，

而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，

你们还是保持了朋友的关系。

但是你们心底清楚，

对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。

即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，

你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。

他有喜欢的人， 你口头上会帮他追，

心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，

你会尽你所能的帮他，

不会计较又欠了谁。

男女朋友吃醋了，

你会安抚他们说你和他只是朋友，

但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，

心中都有过这么一个特别的朋友，

很矛盾的行为。

一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，

但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他，

总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。

你宁愿做他的朋友，

彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。

特别是这样，

你还是知道，

他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，

当他那个特别的朋友，

有什么不好呢？

你心中的这个特别的朋友..会是谁呢？

很多的感情，

都因为一厢情愿，

最后连朋友都当不成了。

常常觉得惋惜，

可惜一些本来很好的友情，

最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你。

如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，

这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，

表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，

要不就连朋友都当不成了。

有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，

你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。

希望你们能珍惜身边的人，

可能在这一刻你们不觉得他、她是你生命中最重要的人..

一旦他、她已离你身边而去是，才发觉..

一切都太迟了

hope you will saw this

Shame on me

Doesn't know why
I keep trap myself in Love
Love
desire of it
seeking for it
fall for it
crash because of it too
the one I Love doesn't Love me
yet
the funniest part
the one I don't Love Love me
I still remember Jason ask me for my opinion
Choosing
the one who love you
or
the one you love
I told him
get the one that love you
because you'll get happier
after all
I'm the one who chose the one who I Love
[Jason,I'm Sorry]
.
I wish you wasn't treat me good
I wish you really keep a distance from me
because is damn hard for me to
PULL OFF
thinking of you
missing you
care of you
Love you
many times
I told myself
that's over
but you gave me hope after all
elder said
when your expectation is high
you get more hurt
Peoples are right
I'm stupid
willing to wait someone that never think of me
lying to myself
haha
I'm Dumb enough
but I told them
I never regret because being together with you all these day
even is short
but It's memories between you and me

Death

Ever tried been to hell?
haha
I almost meet my papa there~
and that's the reason I didn't update my blog lately
but thanks to my sis
She brought me back
those day
My limitation appear in front of me
I did thinking of giving up
she gave some advise
she talk with me
Many things happened but I don't think gonna wrote here
.
Today
were going to MSCC
hm~event organized by CLS
well,actually i suppose not to be there
tsp ask me to go
so
I were there
haha
shock when I saw people i knew at stage
they did well on their performance
^.^
nice work guys

My thought

I always looking foward
for the new day
wishing the next day is a better day
than before
Life
Love
Studies
people around me are stop study
working and earning $$
some of them
chasing their dream
some of them
live with their life
Me?
once and before
I'm one of them
chasing the life of dreams
Fact wake me up
from this violent society
focus on studies but always meets problem
maths,programing
damn you
can't you just be simple?
so I can get a flying color results
=.=
Love
I'm loser of it
but
I really want to know
who the FUCK is playing with me
sms me and ask me to be your bf
even I'm look like playful
but
I take serious in every relationship
just
sometimes
I'm not good enough
tsp
when i said I Love You
I really mean it
maybe is me afraid of getting hurts
that's why I just keep quiet
don't think myself can Bear it
Tomorrow is your PCA & Statistic
again
don't make yourself exhausted
all the best

Not Happy~

Wohoo~
I lost 15 marks for my program design
FUN MAN
missed the time to passed up assignment
just a little bit more time
and
i could pass it up
=(
i had no words on it
usha was surprise when heard that i didn't passed up the assignment
...
i was upset for the whole day
can't even smile when saw tsp msg
even her picture

Emo

You said I always Emo

But did You know why I Emo-ing?

Let me Tells you

I Emo because I CARE You

If I don't Care about You

I WON'T FUCKING GIVE A DAMN

did you ever realise

when you mansion about "HIM"

how is my feels?

my Heart turn cold

and started to Emo

I agree that I was too sensitive about

every single word or action

you made

You had asked

How's relationship goes if I always Emo

Lets make this clear

I don't Emo with my dear

I just flighty with my lover

you said you're not Happy

and you coverd it sucessfully

but you know what

I can feel that you ain't Happy

but

I was stun

I don't know what should I do to helps

I just Hope that

you can share with me whenever you sad

you can hits me or scold me

rather than keep it inside you heart

.

Yea Right

I know you won't give a damn

who am I to You?

I'm Just Nobody

I always ask Myself you ain't my dear

why I care so much?

but I can't depart my Feeling aside

Because of You

The One I care the most~

Drunk

Wee~

all is drunk

Me,Melvin,DJ,LQ,Eddie & James

1st times ever

Last Saturday

None of us survive from Drunk

haha

James goes the worst

He totally fainted

vomit all the way back to EP

haha

Next is LQ

he is better than the previous time

he drink wisky without adding any water leh

hehe

Me,DJ & Eddie

are half-drunk

hehe

Melvin?

He drink alot too

just not bad as Us

maybe he dah biasa

haha

and the part that pissed me off is

he missing

none of us know where the hell he been

for like an hour +

were worries about him

Me,DJ,Eddie called him for 100 times +

he didn't fucking answer

=.="

we heading back to EP

mana tau Melvin called me to fetch him

Fetch him back to HweiSze there

and heading back EP

Dragging James back to EP

ei,keep fit lor

damn Heavy leh you

haha

I drink because of someone
I drunk because of someone too~
Suffering of it

Deserved of it

失落的感觉

Today
I go to class alone
and 1 hour early =.=
alone waiting the time comes
meet LimLiYen
and talked about DJ
she told me that I'm alone now
...
12pm
class started
I still sitting there alone
till class end
Going back to EP?
don't have card
call peoples and finally Jack bring his card to me
Thank You
EP is silent
home alone
gaming alone is suck
.
Normally DJ will remind me when is the class
he always playing his hp beside me
borrow his EP-card to me
Making lots of noise in room
.
I feels empty
.
DJ
I respect the decision you made
and
work hard for it
When free come back to sampat with us lar
Miss You
not me
is all of Us
Peoples in room 0303
We are Brothers
=)
take care
If one day you dare to forget one of us
we'll kick your ass
XD

Tag from NIENIE

Rules:It's harder than it looks!
Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people.
Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.
They have to be real.
Nothing made up!
If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.
You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1.What is your name : LIN PAU SOON
2. A four Letter Word : LOVE
3. A boy's Name : Louise
4. A girl's Name : Lynnette
5. An occupation : Lawyer
6. A color : Light Blue
7. Something you'll wear :
9. A food : Lemon
10. Something found in the bathroom :
11. A place : London
12. A reason for being late : Lazy
13. Something you'd shout : Lame
14. A movie title : Lord of the Ring
15. A drink : Latte
16. A musical group : LinkinPark
17. An animal : Leopard
18. A street name :
19. A type of car : Lancer
20. The title of a song : Love Song

I tag~~
~Lynnette
~Danny
~LQ
~QM
~Miyako

Bad Day

Morning wake up~
heard a sound at beside me
my glasses were broken.
Preparing go to PSLC ~
with one mother f**ker
go there had some fun with others
just someone didn't be there with me
quite sad
when finish
were going back to ep
but whose know
someone missing from the room
DJ
where are you?
leaving us without a good reason
you know how is our feels?
none of us feel good
we missed the time being with you
come back leh
We're here for You
room 0303
hehe
then i pack my stuff go home
then funny things
Accident happen
FUN MAN!
walao ei, feel like damn bad luck de lor
my car side door totally gone
i really shocked
and stun for few sec...
i was like dun care
when try to online
and try
cannot pulak?
walao
fooling me meh?
i ask Jack what happen to my modem
he told me that lighthing bring the ended life to my modem
:'(
silents........
then looking people to fetch me back to EP
thanks to my friend [wees]
but not end yet
I bring my stuff to EP
who know the door is locked
and i thought hsemate going limteh
go find them but don't have =.=
go back and knocked the door
knock till wanna broke only LQ open door for me
Today really a shit day
.

Busy

I prove 1 little things
in this busy Life
My Mind are great
haha
can remember all the things i have to do
meeting
venue
things to do
time table
studies
gaming
website
LOL
But
still hope that my result won't drop
.
there's somethings I really want to tell someone
from today
I'll forget all about you
yesterday
I drink for just a few drop of alcohol
but I feel sadness
due to the
every words you told me
.

Recently

Long Time didn't post new blog~
busy about CLS thingy again
CLS Gathering and PSLC Camp
Tired
really afraid about my academic
Hope this sem will get better result than previous

This week is CNY event
they really work hard for it :)
I saw almost all were dying
but They still do the best for the event
Today are the last event day
Very large event
doing well [ei,i seldom praise people de leh]
Sorry for can't help much
all i can do is support and cheer for you guys
.
my Event is coming
worry
things happen~
.
Jes
Thanks for helping me till very late night
I keep it on mind
Anythings just share with me lar
I know somethings is hard to say it out
Trust me
Said it out
otherwise will leave a bad effect to your soul and mind
I'll turn sad if peoples around me effecting me
I'll try my best to bring you out of the sadness life
Live Happy

感情

Today after class
watch two movie with DJ
Title:
我的最爱
十分爱
.
Same director,Same actor
but nice to watch
Actually when watching
I was like~omg
really feel like wanna cry out
but must tahan
because DJ is beside me
hehe
But you know why?
Because somehow I feel likes I face the same situation
but
I tell you hor
both movies ending is SAD
meet up with the wrong one
the movies teach me:
.
you're blinded by some factors
till you can't saw the truth
~what you saw isn't true~
.
如果一个人喜欢你，他会改的
有些话不问不知道不问会后悔的
.
感情是有时机的

ChineseNewYear

This ChineseNewYear [CNY]
I celebrate with my friend Family
His name is KuanHua
One of my BestFriends in life
We went Genting
his family plan to asked angpau from Uncle Lim
LOL
but before CNY started
I and friends go to count down
and I saw 2 person
EngKiat
What you doing in Malacca?
o.O
no need to celebrate with Family o?
and the Girl
how you going to explained later?
hehe
I didn't sleep for that night
not because of them
but were gaming the whole night
kaka
Prepare stuff and heading to Genting around 9am+
When I step to the bus
there's lots of unknown faces
New to me
Start getting angpau from people
Genting, we are coming
not plan to enter playground
but entering Casino
kaka
helping his aunt won 1000++
I doesn't play
just hanging around
Our !st day Dinner
9Dishes
cost RM950.50
2nd day
RM1143.90
8Dishes
=.=|
Swt
yaya
about the gambling
others aunt and his mum and dad
giving a VERY BIG angpau to uncle.Lim
ard RM10k
as you know gambling 10 times
you lose 9
I having great time with them
even a bit paiseh
xD
but there's one bad news come from my mum
She told me my cousin steal my angpau
from my mum Room
1st Emotions is FUCK HIM
lucky that my mum get it back because there's some sign on the angpau
can't believe
We coming back from Genting
at 3rd CNY
I'm Bad Son
didn't go home
I'm Sorry Mum
Stay with his family
having fun all the time
Well,Is start to settle down
My Feelings
3rd sem is coming
going to work hard
and harder
Good Luck to Me and
Peoples in the world
Lastly
Happy Chinese New Year :)

愛しています

Watashi Anatao Aishiteru
translated into
I Love You
Sachiko-san teach me this
Sachiko-san
Is a Lady who married to a Men in Malacca
which giving me opportunity to learn everything about Japanese
well
I'm glad that I meet her
in few years ago
.
Peoples besides me
seem like having trouble about 愛
Are you one of them?
Love
I writes many blog about it
Love gives people
Hope
Future

A sense of security
Happiness
Second Chance
Forgiveness
Honor
Forever
Power
instead of these
Love gives people
Sad
Disappointed
Greedy
Betrayal
Change
hatefulness
Tears
.
Weird huh?
there's different Feels that Love can gives
Had you asked yourself
What is Love?
Peoples told me
Love is undefined
Some told me that Love is a gift
What yours opinion?
.
one of my friend write in her blog
Love by someone
or
Love someone
Which you're seeking?
I think everyone looking for Both
but
is that possible?
yea, maybe one or two couple are
before this there's a guy asking for my opinion
I answered him by choosing the Love by someone
If you read my previous blog
you'll know someone wanna love me
But I refuse Her's Love
I hope I didn't guide him into wrong path
.
Experiences
make me growth
yet
make Me fear
towards Love
But what I hope is
People besides Me
Appreciate people whose love you
and you love.

Holidays~

People
Sure you loves Holidays
Don't think either one of you hate it
If you're the one
then you might have the same feels with me
BORING
ARGH
Friends are working or study
I'm Fucking Alone
=.=
Well
1st few days
I feel really Happy because got time to rest
normally too busy
haha
after that
when I was msn peoples
all of them said the same word
"BORING"
hehe
so Cute~
when working or studying
All were waiting for Holidays
when Holidays came
they complains too boring
hm...
peoples are used to be like that
^^
I meet up with old dudes
plan to play badminton
and
play mahjong
hoho
My friend ask me to go Genting with him on 1st day of CNY
still considering
any suggestions?
anyways
Hope all reader of my blog
Happy Holidays

for M from J

today you msg me
told me that there's a blog about M&J
I went and read all
just after few minutes
I never get to respond
you told that the blog is deleted
.
Christmas
I'm looking for you too
in portugis settlement
TB told me that you're here before
missed it =(
and the following hours
we chatted
and you keep ask me
who's the one
who making all that
I won't tell you
because I can't prove its done by " "
and u said going to delete me from msn list
well
since u plan to delete why don't block me?
I was angry
and respond that towards you
I knew its hurt
but you think that won't hurts me too?
I always wondering how to greets you
sms?msn?or what?
sorry, I not brave enough to do all that
I always write and delete
keep asking myself
why so stupid?
waiting someone who don't want you
so I looking for someone
to make me forget you
"I Always Here For You"
is the promises i made for you
i keep that in my heart
since you doesn't need it anymore
now
all I can do is to apologize
Sorry to not being brave
Sorry to not tells you
Sorry to hurting you
Sorry for Loving you
from deeps of my heart
just wanted to say that
I Love You

Sick

This is the 3rd day

turning into 4th

in few more hours

Im Sick =(

Well, I willing to die rather than suffer like this

argh

Is pain

Not feeeeeeeeeeeeeling well

1st day

after taking my bf panadol

I was getting better

active fast =.=

wow

Its really work and fast

but

2nd day

I thought this will be ended

whose knew

after the protection of the panadol

its still the same

FUCK!

but more than half of the responsibility is on me

because I drink

and get scolded by bf

I'm So Sorry

I never knew its getting worst

friend told me will getting better if i drink

take another panadol

and feeling better

bf afraid me LOVEs panadol

haha

Won't

3rd day

hey

next day 5th Jan is my finals

why can't you just fucking leave me alone?

I'm sick of it

prepare for finals

=(

I don't want sick became an excuse

for me to failed

Sleep ard 10+pm

woke up at 1+am

thanks to James and DJ

talking nonsense ==\

silents when peoples sleep

Go to Finals

and feeeeeeeels really bad

going to see doctor now

and Jack

Thanks for helping me :)